Overjoyed

BLESSED. That's pretty much the perfect word to sum up the last three days. Let's go through it day by day.

Friday Oct 22nd. We went to the doctor for my 20 week scan. And i was so nervous i figured my blood pressure would be sky-high. (which it wasn't, it was great) We got to see our lil kernal, and we found out we are going to be blessed in less than 6 months with a lil girl !! We're naming her Kaylee Paige. Her daddy picked it out hehehe. Such a beautiful name i think. We are both so ecstatic. We were wanting another boy soooo bad since we lost Rylee, but the moment they told us GIRL, i'm overwhelmed with joy. I am so so excited, anxious, impatient, looking-forward-to meeting her that i can't even think straight. And i've felt a lot of movement, and even a few kicks. It's just such an amazing thing, even after our loss. :(

Saturday Oct 23rd. Yes, the determination of a girl COULD be wrong, but i couldn't help myself. My husband and i have been working so hard to save money, and so we decided we were going on an all-day shopping spree. And we did. And even though i'm sure people will buy us plenty of clothes, we bought tons of clothes. Onesies, jumpers, outfits, a jacket, a few hats, blankets, pacifiers, a sleep sack....and we changed some of the things on our registry since we know what we're having. We had so much fun. I'm looking forward to this journey.

Sunday Oct 24th. Today was icing on the cake. I got to sleep in (which is probably the best thing, lol) and when i woke up, i just laid in bed and put my hands on my belly and enjoyed feeling Kaylee move around. Then when my hubby woke up and he put his hand on my belly, she stopped. Lol! She is such an amusing baby. At the ultrasound the nurse would the wand lower on my belly to get a between the leg shot and she would cover up with her hands. So the nurse would move the wand up on my belly to get a face shot and she would move her hands up to cover her face. Then the nurse would go back lower, and she would move her hands back down, and then back up. It was soooooo funny. We got a half view face shot, but we FINALLY got a good shot of the three lines saying she was a lil girl. Lol. Also today (sunday) my mom brought two big tote containers full of girl baby clothes that she has been buying and gave them to me. There are so many dresses and onesies and outfits in there. And socks, we are definately not going to have to buy socks, lol. My mom said "Jesika, you might as well not have a shower, you're going to get everything before the shower!! " LOL. I'm so blessed to have such an involved family. I'm so proud. Even through the bad times in the family, it's not really all that bad, lol.

So that's my excitement for the weekend. It's bittersweet, because i still miss Rylee. But i feel like this: My little Kaylee has something better than an older brother to watch over her. She has a guardian angel. Who will, I'M SURE, always protect her, and keep her safe. It hurts to know that i will never be able to hold him and hug him like i hopefully will her, but i know that he's watching over us. And i'm so blessed to be able to have him as our guardian angel, right along with such an amazing Savior who will protect my little family.

Thank you Lord for all that you have given me, even if i don't think i always deserve it.

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