Holiday Festivities

*ahhhh* it feels SOO good to relax. I have been running since Wednesday, and even though it has been an amazing Thanksgiving Holiday, i must say i am whooped! So let's recap all my activities. Wednesday we had to do inventory at work, and were there til about 8:00AM. Then we came home and took a shower, and headed to Terry's mom's house. We had decided to do Thanksgiving over there on Wednesday since she had to work Thursday and we always go to my Grandma's on Thanksgiving evening. So we hung out over there with her all day. Terry and I hopped on the four-wheelers (one was ours one was Susie's b/f) and rode for awhile, then Susie and i had to go to Walmart to get a few last minute things. Then when we got back Susie started cooking and i had to go pick up my neice Mariah and nephew Elisha from Bedford so they could come spend the holidays with us. After a GPS that got me lost (and i KNOW i took all the right roads) and having to stop and pee TWICE cause Kaylee was pushing her head down on my bladder, i finally got there. Then on the way back, i decided that i was going to pitch a fit with the dealership where i bought my car because it's in the shop UNDER WARRANTY and they said they didn't have a rental for me. Needless to say, i got me a rental car by the time i got back to FC, lol. It was a Ford Focus :( Which sucks when i'm used to my spacious, roomy, comfy, decked out Dodge Journey....BUT at least it's wheels. It gets me where i have to go, and i don't have to pay for it, heheh. So anyways i FINALLY make it back to Susie's, and we had a friggin AWESOME dinner. She made turkey, fried stuffing (which i must say, Kaylee LOVED), mashed potatoes and gravy, brown and serve rolls, greens, green beans, macaroni and cheese, 2 sweet potato pies, 2 pumpkin pies, and some kinda green salad with cottage cheese. I was so full. SO FULL. Then we came home and i slept like a baby. Thursday morning we got up and i had to go shopping to cook a few things for Grandma's. I made crockpot macaroni and cheese, my infamous 7 layer salad, and a pumpkin pie. And of course Terry's dad made a meatloaf (if we showed up at any of my family gettogethers and didn't have it we would have to leave lol). So then we went to my grandmas (and my mom and bro had to ride with us cause HER car messed up too ! How crazy) and ate like pigs again lol. Then we came home and ordered a movie and hung out with my bro Mikey, Elisha, and Mariah the rest of the night :) Friday we slept in instead of doing the whole door-buster black friday stuff. I was going to, but i don't want anything. i don't need anything. So we just waited til later around noon and headed to Valley View. (We had to take Elisha home cause he was sick....which i think he caught my cold, booo) Valley view was STILL packed @ 1. We went in a couple stores, but i got tired of dealing with all the rude people bumping into me and not saying excuse me, so instead of me going flip off on someone, we just left. BUT not before i got me a pizza pretzel from Aunt Annie's Pretzel Shop. I love them!! Then we went in Walmart on 220 and i had to get a new SD card for picture storage....and what do ya know, they were on sale for $5 when they were regular $20!! and it wasn't advertised!! I was so happy i went back and bought the other 2 they had left lol! TTHHEENN we came home and cooked some mashed potatoes and gravy to go with the turkey and fried stuffing Terry's dad had made while we were gone and we all had Thanksgiving dinner at our house...again. Lol. So after getting our bellies full, i ended up falling asleep on the couch around 9 lol and slept til 12 and then got in the bed, lol. So today, we got up around 7:30 had waffles and bacon for breakfast, then met up with Terry's mom's boyfriend Jimmy and headed to Floyd to the Christmas tree farm to find our perfect Christmas tree. And it was sooOSOSOSOOSOS friggin cold! OMG! It was 31 degrees and the wind was blowing sooo hard. I about froze. But we had so much fun. We got the best Christmas tree, and i bought some of the most awesome smelling potpourri! I love it. I get some every year. The wife of the guy who owns the farm makes it :) Soo after finally warming up, we had to come home, take Mariah all the way to Bedford, then go to Susie's to help her put up her tree that Jimmy got. Then we FINALLY came home, after going to walmart and buying some many UNNEEDED Christmas decorations, and put our tree up. Of course i can't decorate it til 2moro so the branches can settle, but i'm so exhausted i don't think i could do it tonite if i wanted to. Which i don't. So here i am, sitting on my tail, trying to play with my stubborn Kaylee. She kicks when i am the only one paying attention, but if anyone else puts their hands on my belly, she will NOT kick for nuthin! LOL, Terry's only felt her once, and that was like, 8 weeks ago! lol. Oh well i guess, soon enough she's going to be so big she can't help but let us feel her kick!

So i'm done rambling for now. I'm off to bed. <3>
Kaylee Paige *24wks6days

Prayers Requested!!

Wow. I have so much to say. SO much to say. and i'll probably forget something, but i'm going to try to quickly get down everything i have been wanting to blog.

First. I really need people to pray....for a couple different people/families. Starting with a friend of mine named T*. I'll go into a little detail. She was pregnant and lost the baby around 6 or 7 weeks. I'm not sure how long ago that was. Then she got prego again. She was due sometime in January, so she was like, 6 weeks further along than i am, which puts her at 28 or 29 weeks. Well during the whole pregnancy she has been severely sick. She has some sort of intestinal disease which causes her lots of problems. Probably about three weeks ago she was hospitalized, and stayed in the hospital for 10 days. She got out on a Friday, and 2 days later (last Sunday) she went back to the er with really bad pain. To sum it up, she had horrible infection and it had gotten really bad....and it .....(thinking of the correct words....).....made the baby pass away. And the dr. said if they would have waited she could have died too. I don't want to go into anymore detail, but please PLEASE pray for her. And her family. I am so upset for her. I know it's so bad to lose a baby, but she almost died too. I just can't imagine. Please pray. <3

Another family also needs our prayers. For those of you who don't know, i work at a window factory called Plygem. Our plant manager, Robert "Bob" Andrews, was killed in a head on collision Saturday morning. I'm really at a loss for words regarding this. You just have no idea when it's going to be your last breath, your last kiss, your last meal. It's just overwelming in a way. That could have been me. Or Terry. Or you. :( Bob was a good man, firm in his Christian beliefs, and i know God took care of him, but i.......just feel like i took him for granted. I seen this man everyday, he was there for us when we lost Rylee, and i never told him how much i appreciate him. *sigh* Please just pray for his family (his wife and 2 kids were with him, but they are okay, were released from the hospital yesterday).

On a little bit lighter note my aunt and one of my friends just found out they were expecting not too long ago. So also keep them in your thoughts and prayers.

Lol i know, i have a long prayer list today :) Just shows that people need God ! :)

Sooooo about the baby. :) Kaylee seems to be getting bigger. I can feel her kicking and moving and twisting around! It's so exciting! i can't wait til we go back to the dr this Friday! We'll be 6 months! Guess we're on the downhill side of this, huh? :)

Well....i think i touched on everything. I'm sure i 4got something but it'll just have to be in the next post lol.

Overjoyed

BLESSED. That's pretty much the perfect word to sum up the last three days. Let's go through it day by day.

Friday Oct 22nd. We went to the doctor for my 20 week scan. And i was so nervous i figured my blood pressure would be sky-high. (which it wasn't, it was great) We got to see our lil kernal, and we found out we are going to be blessed in less than 6 months with a lil girl !! We're naming her Kaylee Paige. Her daddy picked it out hehehe. Such a beautiful name i think. We are both so ecstatic. We were wanting another boy soooo bad since we lost Rylee, but the moment they told us GIRL, i'm overwhelmed with joy. I am so so excited, anxious, impatient, looking-forward-to meeting her that i can't even think straight. And i've felt a lot of movement, and even a few kicks. It's just such an amazing thing, even after our loss. :(

Saturday Oct 23rd. Yes, the determination of a girl COULD be wrong, but i couldn't help myself. My husband and i have been working so hard to save money, and so we decided we were going on an all-day shopping spree. And we did. And even though i'm sure people will buy us plenty of clothes, we bought tons of clothes. Onesies, jumpers, outfits, a jacket, a few hats, blankets, pacifiers, a sleep sack....and we changed some of the things on our registry since we know what we're having. We had so much fun. I'm looking forward to this journey.

Sunday Oct 24th. Today was icing on the cake. I got to sleep in (which is probably the best thing, lol) and when i woke up, i just laid in bed and put my hands on my belly and enjoyed feeling Kaylee move around. Then when my hubby woke up and he put his hand on my belly, she stopped. Lol! She is such an amusing baby. At the ultrasound the nurse would the wand lower on my belly to get a between the leg shot and she would cover up with her hands. So the nurse would move the wand up on my belly to get a face shot and she would move her hands up to cover her face. Then the nurse would go back lower, and she would move her hands back down, and then back up. It was soooooo funny. We got a half view face shot, but we FINALLY got a good shot of the three lines saying she was a lil girl. Lol. Also today (sunday) my mom brought two big tote containers full of girl baby clothes that she has been buying and gave them to me. There are so many dresses and onesies and outfits in there. And socks, we are definately not going to have to buy socks, lol. My mom said "Jesika, you might as well not have a shower, you're going to get everything before the shower!! " LOL. I'm so blessed to have such an involved family. I'm so proud. Even through the bad times in the family, it's not really all that bad, lol.

So that's my excitement for the weekend. It's bittersweet, because i still miss Rylee. But i feel like this: My little Kaylee has something better than an older brother to watch over her. She has a guardian angel. Who will, I'M SURE, always protect her, and keep her safe. It hurts to know that i will never be able to hold him and hug him like i hopefully will her, but i know that he's watching over us. And i'm so blessed to be able to have him as our guardian angel, right along with such an amazing Savior who will protect my little family.

Thank you Lord for all that you have given me, even if i don't think i always deserve it.

<3

This & That

So...i've got a lot of thoughts going through my head at this point. I don't even know where to start.

We made it past the point where we lost Rylee. We were 14weeks4days with him. We're 17 weeks and 2 days now. yay :) So i'm so excited. I've been feeling the baby move quite a bit. Yesterday i think i even felt a strong kick. Heheh. It was amazing. I'm so so anxious to start feeling him/her more. I think that is the most anticipated part for me. AND i'm so excited to find out what my lil kicker is. We are so anxious. We were supposed to find out this past Monday at our last appointment, BUT our lil munchkin wouldn't lay still lol. He/she was kicking right towards the monitor. Lol.

But....all my excitement is dampened. Because...in 2 days it will be my due date with Rylee. I've done really well up until now. But it's hard not to think about it when the two people that were due around the same time as me are talking about the induction date and "nesting" and counting down the days. It's not their fault, and i don't have any negative feelings towards them, but i'm sad because that should have been me. I should be putting on my status ***2 days*** and other stuff like that. And although i am very thankful for the blessing that is growing inside of me, i can't help but be a little sad that my first is gone. No matter what i say or do or think, nothing can change that. I am just so upset. I haven't broken down in tears yet, but i have a gut feeling that they will come Tuesday.

Please. Friends who read this. Pray for me. Pray for this baby. Pray for my husband to be my strength, second to the Lord above.

I don't want anyone to misunderstand me. I don't want to change anything about my life. I love the baby inside of me. More than words can describe. Miscarriage and baby loss just SUCKS. I'm sure all the people who have experienced it will DEFINATELY agree with me.

On a good note, this pregnancy is going well. Other than the normal aches and pains associated with it, i haven't been sick except for a few times earlier on. Heartburn has been rare. Sleep is still coming pretty good. And i'm starting to show :) yay :)

Well i guess that's all for now.

Periodic Visits

Believe it or not, i check my blog almost everyday...but i never have anything to say that i haven't already said, lol. My thoughts mainly are around the baby, and....the baby. I had my "unscheduled dr visit" almost 2 weeks ago, which turned out good and we got pics :) And today was my scheduled visit. Everything went well. Couldn't tell what the lil bean was yet because he/she was turned the wrong way, but they said next time is the time :) SO I'M SOOOO STOKED! AHHHH! The CRL is right about 2 inches (5.1 CM) which by my baby book ("Pregnancy Day by Day") is above average for a 13 week old fetus. AND WE'RE ONLY 12, lol. So it's definately going to be a Bussey Baby. hahaha. The heart rate was 153, so a little lower than last time which was 160. I guess its getting more regulated :) We got some great 4-D ultrasound pix today too, which i totally love.

I guess it's just nerves, but i don't want to get too overly excited. Today, and the last few days, have been the first days that i haven't really worried about things. I guess because the first trimester is over i'm starting to be more calm. But i don't wanna be too calm.....just because i'm in the second trimester doesn't mean everything's in the clear. Speaking from RECENT experience, lol.

Just continue to pray for us, we always need it. I've got a few people on my prayer list too. I'll leave their names unspoken, but they know who they are. I pray that God will touch their lives and heal them of their hurt, and bless them in ways they can't imagine. I know he has the power to.

Emotional

So who knew i'd be too tired to post anything for like, weeks. LOL. Exhaustion has definately taken it's toll on me. I want to sleep all the time, bbbuuuttt, i can't. Boo. Being at work at 5 am every morning and working til 5 or 6 pm every day really blows. BUT, i guess at least the money is good right. So let's update everything. Everything seems to be fine with the baby. No bleeding :) WOOO HOOO. That's a big step for me. I'm 10wks4days, and this is about the time i started bleeding with Rylee. I pray everyday that it doesn't start. I've been having minor aches (NOT CRAMPS) in my lower stomach since.....Saturday, on and off. It's not bad, and like i said, there's no bleeding. But to be on the safe side, i called my dr this afternoon, just to make sure it wasn't anything serious (i figure it's round ligament pains). Well, they said everything sounds okay, but to be on the safe side they're going to do an ultrasound and the dr is going to see me in the morning. They said they want to be able to prevent anything they can and they're going to keep a close eye on my based on my previous situation. So, i absolutely love my dr's office. Physicians 2 Women in Roanoke is awesome :) BBBUUUTTT. Now i'm nervous for in the morning cause i'm so terrified something is going to be wrong. Something that can't be fixed or they're going to say there's no heartbeat. Gosh, i just can't wait til lunchtime tomorrow, since it will all be over by then. But on a good note, we get to see our baby again tomorrow, yay.

Please if you will, keep us in for your prayers. We can use all we can get :)

ABC'S of ME :)

Thanks to Desiree for this :) I LOVE these things :)


A- My AIR CONDITIONER is set on: 60. BRRRR.

B- My BEDROOM theme is: hmmm currently it's a semi-dark purple with light purple/white/pinkish flowers and spirals :)

C- The CAR in the driveway is: 2009 Dodge Journey for me, and a 2006 Chevy Colorado for my sweetie

D- My DESK looks: like a tornado hit it, lol

E- The EXACT time I wake up daily is: 4:30am :( BOO

F- The FIRST thing I wash in the shower is: my hair, only after i stand in the water and get totally hot all over lol

G- My GARAGE is filled with: no garage, but we have a buildings, and it is full of.....basically junk, lol, but it's our junk, so it's all good :)

H- My HOUSE is: freezing, but smelling good, hawaiian breeze and some other smell which is awesome!!

I- If you peeked INSIDE my bedroom you'd see: my cat Soxx sleeping on my Boppy (the best pillow in the whole world, pregnant or not!!!

J- My favorite JUICE is: orange juice, and when i get a hankering for it, apple juice

K- The best part of my KITCHEN is: the oven, i love to bake, can't wait til fall :)

L- The LAST person who visited my home was: my mom earlier today to check on me

M- The last piece of MAIL for me was: Physicians to Women (bill, ugh), Baby magazine, credit card statement, allstate bill, and like, 50 million pieces of junk mail...i hadn't been to the post office in so long, we had to see the clerk to get the rest of it, lmao

N- My NEIGHBORS think: are my parents and still live a lil ways away, and i like it like that....being secluded that is heheh

O- If you OPENED my fridge you'd see: fruit, fruit, fruit, Propel flavored water, CapriSuns, leftovers from Logans, leftovers from grilling out tonight, and then all the normal stuff

P- My last house PARTY was: lol, we're known for our parties, BUT....we haven't had one....since.....like 2 years ago. Terry's family came down the day after we lost Rylee and had cooked a bunch of food....but that by no means was a party.

Q- A QUICK meal I like to fix is: bagel bites, lol

R- My favorite ROOM of the house is: my bedroom :)

S- The SHAMPOO brand I use is: Aussi !!

T- My largest TELEVISION is: 62"

U- UNDER my bed you will find: containers of wedding stuff, boxes of scrapbooking items, puzzles we've glued together but haven't hung up, and probably some of my socks that Soxx has drug away lol

V- The last time I VACUUMED was: actually...TODAY!! good thing i didn't fill this out yesterday lmao

W- Looking out my WINDOW I see: darkness, lightning bugs ;)

X- I wish I had extra: money, lots of it

Y- My YARD is: freshly mowed, flowers blooming, beautiful !!

Z- ZZZZZZZ My bedtime is: 9pm, and earlier depending on how tired i am, lol